Moments in Time

First I have to tell you about my week. What I had to do to create the week I wanted. I am only working three days this week and taking two vacation days tues and thurs to attend doctor, therapy and clinic appointments with the kids.

Monday was my son's first christmas pagent. It was at 2pm. How was I going to make it? I decided that I could not since I was already taking 2 vacation days this week. I could not take another afternoon off. The week before I had made the decision that I could not go. My MIL was going to go and take our daughter and all would be fine. The boy started talking about the pagent on the weekend, how excited he was and that I was going to be there to see it! When Monday finally came I sent him to school knowing I would not be there and the gnawing started in my stomach.

As the day progressed I became more and more distressed about missing this moment. Finally I had to pull the pin and go home sick because my body was telling me this was important and if I didn't do something IT was. I actually had a feeling like I was going to explode. NOT good! As I drove away from the building I felt so guilty. Like I was cheating. Skipping school, but worse.

So I arrived home got everyone packed up and to the school. The joint was packed. HOW did all these parents manage this??? What happened next I will never forget.

The lights dimmed the music started and 28 beautiful JK/SK kids started to sing. Then our son, with Cerebral Palsy, walked across the stage, WALKED, by himself. He took his place on the stage and sang with his class. I could see his eyes darting around the audience looking, searching and then WOW! He did what every little kid does- his eyes lit up and he waved.

My heart sang, my eyes teared up and I smiled and waved back.

I am quite positive that if I had missed this moment and heard about it from him and my MIL later in the day, the guilt I would have had would have been heavier then that guilt of going home sick.

Some decisions are SO hard to make. They are usually the ones where the result is so worth it.

Be Well.